I want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this possibility to see shining samples of the teachings of a course in miracles acim, and fo the first time in an extended while, I don’t feel alone.

Part of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I will be doing so for the incorrect reason; as a way in order to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I had had any insights. What I’m about to talk about wasn’t yet clear at that time; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never needs to have told you, never needs to have allow you to see inside. Don’t want it troubling the mind, won’t you allow it be?” This confused me as I really could not think of whatever I had stated that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don’t want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I had in arriving at the Monastery was that I’d somehow interfere having its residents’peace of mind, simply by my presence alone. This belief that I really could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for quite some time, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of is own videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief has been (has been?) released.

There are other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.